A Fatter Martha Would Have Died

I was running all over the stage during rehearsal one day and after we came home, I told my family, “A fatter Martha would have died doing all that I did today.” LOL

So. You may not believe that I was 513 lbs. I have proof.

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This was 2010.

My daughter had just turned 7 and we were in her first drama at our old church. One of her first acting experiences.

We’re in a show together now, too. Grapes of Wrath. I’m so proud of her. She’s still adorable!

I look at this picture and I can’t believe how big I was. My husband stayed with me through thick and thin. Mostly thick. He loved me. Told me how beautiful I was. Desired me. Even at 513.

He is my hero. The love of my life. I will never forget his loyalty. Most men would have crumbled. Ran away. Divorced me.

I want to honor you all my days, Guy. You deserve so much. You stuck by my side through illness, super morbid obesity, disease, cancer, PTSD, everything. We may have wavered a few times, but we’re still standing. I’m so lucky to have you by my side.

I never thought happy-ever-after was possible. Turns out, my first serious boyfriend would be my everlasting lover, husband, best friend, champion, hero, advocate, care giver. You’re a dream. A beautiful foggy dream of hope, love and laughter. Thank you for holding my hand through the worst years of my life and loving me back to health. I don’t deserve you or such happiness. I’m so thankful for you.

I am 257.0 right now! Progress. 🙂



Harms from self-reflection
Are immune to charms of self-protection.
Stalled on a sticky web of tangled thoughts
Tenderness trapped like flailing, flapping flies
Wrapped and stranded
On silk and surrendered sighs
Dripping like honey dewdrops
Dotting my dusty desk at dusk
I regret
And yet
I feast and toast this bitter roast of memory.

Make it Right

Buttoned up
Dressed down
Degraded as
A simple pronoun

She. It.

Tied up
Chained down
Crumpled as
A paper crown

Me. Hit.

I’m not so much hurt
As I am hate-full
I’d die tonight
Just to feel grateful

When did my words change
From pages to trash
Why would I trade
My ideas for cash

Today is wrong
Everything’s a fight
Only thing to do is
Make my mind right (WRITE)

Uncharted Sea

2 Timothy 1:7

For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love and self-discipline.

Find what it is, or where it is, that you should be and live with fervor for God Almighty. There’s no time to do less than that.

If God is the wave
And we are the ocean
Let Him move us along
With faithful devotion

Water is deep and still until
It is acted upon by wind
It doesn’t fear, but simply responds
And that’s where living begins

You may be carried far
Be brave and take the blows
Hold on for the ride of your life
Allow the highs and lows

If you can’t raise your anchor and sails
If you can’t submit to Force
You can’t gain new ground
Without trusting the course

If you have faith in God
Look to the stars for hope and relief
You’ll be amazed at the treasures you’ll find
In sailing beyond the reef.


Coconuts and Clouds

Newly fallen coconuts
And cauliflower clouds
Blue-soaked sand
Hosts of shells in crowds

Sing to the birds
Call them from shore
Raise anchor and sail
And drop my oar

Meditate on waves
Sleep below the sun
Kissed by gentle rains–
Falling stars have come undone

Fish swarm
Water’s warm
Shadows form
Gathering storm

Wait for thunder, run for cover
Laughing the entire way
Joy to the bones when we make it home
That’s enough beach for today



Blogging from my phone. Ok after Irma. No injuries. No damage. Miraculous!!! Praise God. No internet.

Wanted to post some haikus.


Water drops on glass.

Hurricane outside our door.

Longing in my heart.


Sigh. Soaked in boredom.

The storm is at my door now.

Relief that it’s here.


In my opinion,

You’re not a Floridian

Until your first storm.

White Moth of Fortune

This moth likes our front door. And we like him/her, too. He/she has been here for weeks now, off and on. Our own personal Florida welcome wagon.

With gold-laced wings
And good-luck feelings
You land upon our door

I can’t help but suppose
You bring luck to those
Who put faith upon your lore

We welcome your visit
And all your exquisite
Purity, truth and clarity

We acknowledge your grace
In resting on this place
And all your unusual rarity

You bring joy
Peace and accord
Light for the impending morn

You bring calm
Soothing charm
Hope is what you’ve borne

We want you to stay
Bring fortune today
And sweep away the storm

If you’re someone I knew
Then know I love you
Especially in this form


How to Recognize an Art Student

LOL this is hilarious. i can verify that my daughter’s drawing arm is very buff while her other arm is weak and flabby. so funny, Lilli! best yet.

Pencil Princess

I’m absolutely ecstatic to present to my citizens this finished, colored piece done in watercolor pencils! Other than my Pencil Princess profile picture, I haven’t ever finished coloring a drawing with watercolor pencils, so I’m very happy with how this one turned out.

Ever wondered how to tell art students apart from “ordinary” people? Now you can with this easy trick: is their non-dominant arm weak and noodley while their dominant arm is super buff and muscular from hours of drawing? If the answer is yes, then you have found yourself an art student.

The reason for this strange phenomenon observed in “art kids” is due to the fact that the non-dominant arm’s only primary function is delivering caffeinated beverages to the mouth if the right arm is busy, while the dominant arm is responsible for many activities (including drawing, painting, browsing memes, etc.)

Below is a depiction of…

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Optical Illusions! “3D” Zigzag Stripe Designs

Love this chevron! I am bored of normal chevron patterns, but this is cool with the shading!! Good job, Lil!

Pencil Princess

Good afternoon, Citizens! Since I’ve started more and more to enjoy making digital art as opposed to drawing traditionally, I’ve continued to update my RedBubble store with new designs. Yesterday and today, I’ve been uploading several different color palettes of a zigzag stripe design. I tried to make it look three-dimensional! Is it working??

Anyway, like my Tetromino Puzzle Patterns, these have several different colors available: red, orange, yellow, green, cyan, blue, violet, pink, gray, and now rainbow! If you click on “Available Products,” you get to see it on 30+ different things. Personally, I like the rainbow pattern on phone cases a lot, even though I don’t have a smartphone! LOL

Feel free to leave some suggestions as to what I should draw and design next, or what I should put on my RedBubble store! Thanks for taking…

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Cute Cartoon Skull & Crossbones Design

u’ve poisoned me with cuteness! beware me hearties. this jolly roger is adorable! good job, PenPrin.

Pencil Princess

My last few posts haven’t been about traditional drawings because I haven’t been drawing a lot lately. Instead, I’ve been shifting my focus a little more towards digital design! That’s not to say I’ve given up on drawing, but I’ve really started to enjoy doing art on the computer in addition to drawing on paper.

More specifically, I’ve been creating a lot of art for my RedBubble store! I haven’t actually made any sales yet, but I just get excited seeing previews of my designs on over 50 different products. I was thinking of new designs I could do, and decided that a cartoon skull and crossbones would be cute! Here is the link to the design on RedBubble.

The description for this piece says, “This design will make you look cool and tough! …Well, almost. The cute and cartoony style clashes with the traditionally ominous symbol of…

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