Prepare Ye

from 2012:

i always assume that my nature is good. i never assume things will go bad. thus my constant failure at preparing my heart and mind for the day.

i should remember the temptation to lose my temper/mind is an ever-present danger. satan is a lion seeking to devour.

my guard against it is proper meditation and preparation. christian or not, if u enter into relationships with the world unprepared, you are destined to fail at loving someone else and giving them grace.

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#Winning!

This is the face of a winner!!

Craigslisters can be awesome or cranks. It’s a lottery. And sometimes? You lose.

Someone just responded to an ad of mine and they were harsh and flippant. BUT! I responded with kindness, honesty, sincerity and directness.

And they had no response!! LOL

#Winning!

That felt great. Whenever I respond with equal measures of biting humor (which I have no shortage of), I feel terrible. Eventually. But this feels awesome!

Level up! 😀

jackpot

Jackpot!!! Ding, ding, ding!

Jesus is a Beaver

Hear me out. Er, read me out, I guess.

Jesus is a beaver.

If u wanna know what I’m talking about, you should watch “Leave It To Beavers” on Netflix. Great documentary. If you like animals.

Beavers come into really dry areas and restore the landscape. They bring water. Well, they don’t bring it, they save it.

Little by little, over time, they build their dams. Higher and higher, they build to keep the water in and make the beaver pond deeper and deeper. They churn up the bottom and drag the dirt, silt and sludge from the bottom and seal up the dam to make it tighter and tighter. Waterproof. So no water gets out. This also makes the pond deeper by scooping up the bottom. The deeper the pond, the less evaporation, so the water stays. More water brings more life. More vegetation, more fish, more food, more neighbors…MORE! The bigger the pond, the more neighbors, human and animal alike, can enjoy the benefits and fruits of the pond.

This is what Jesus does.

Doesn’t he?

He brings us more.

Piece by piece, we can build a strong place with Jesus. We can keep his life-giving water in (he says he is the eternal spring) and keep from running dry. He can scoop up the bottom of our lives and use it for good. All the muck and dirt that we accumulate over time, he can churn that up and use it.

And the deeper we go in Jesus? The greener our valley for others. Other people may benefit from the deep pond we have built with Jesus. We can share the fruits of our labor with our neighbors. We can share what we have built in Christ. We can save the landscape.

Beavers don’t even know they are helping. This is just what they are born to do. Build, build, build.

We can be beavers. We can engineer our lives so that we help others. We can be born to do that or become beavers over time. Little by little.

I wanna be a beaver.

Fragility of Choice

Beautiful weakness.

Question: If God created us, why didn’t he make us stronger, better, less susceptible to weakness and evil?

Answer (in the form of a question lol): If we can’t be tempted, how can we choose? If everything is easy, is that really a choice?

I think it’s beautiful to be weak. To struggle. To choose good, even though it’s hard. To fight the good fight of faith (1 Timothy 6:12). Even to fall. Because there is grace.

Question: If God created us, why did He have to save us?

Answer (maybe): God gave us a choice so that we may love Him freely and honor Him of our own choosing. Come to Him with freedom. Love Him because we want to. He knew that to give us choice, He would have to make us fragile. Capable of falling. But He gave us Christ because:
1. He loved us
2. He knew we would need help

So. We can stand on Christ alone if we fall. That’s gorgeous.

We are fragile. We are weak. We are beautiful.
We are wonderfully and fearfully made.
We are free. We are loved. We are saved.

Thoughts? Opinions? Insight?

Good News/Bad News

Bad News: You’ve been here before.

Good News: You’ve been here before.
So you know what not to do. And you’re still standing.
It’s going to be okay.


Good has gone away.
Bad has come to stay today.
Welcome good again.

314.4

W-T-What???!

I am 314.4 today. YEAH! Whoosh! I can’t believe this. I feel so friggin’ happy right now.

I just had a graphic design interview and it went really well. Came home, weighed myself and I had dropped like 5 lbs. since this morning. Crazy! When it drops, it drops.

I hope you all are doing well today. 🙂 It seems like the sun is just a little brighter. Hopefully for you too!

I took this driving job I currently have to just get by and pay the bills. I don’t really like it. There’s a lot of strange clientele at 3 am on the weekend, even in Venice. So I really hope I can snag this graphic design job. It’s at a college and I think I would be a perfect fit for them.

I was knowledgeable and outgoing. I could answer all of their questions with confidence and experience. So prayers please. If this interview was a board, then I was the hammer that nailed it. LOL

I had a little sign that it was going to be okay right before I walked in. I am bigly into signs. LOL

On the way to Florida (just moved here from KC about a month ago), roadtripping with my daughter down the highway, we kept hearing Ed Sheeran’s Castle On the Hill. It’s an exuberant song with much meaning for me. Floating down the road toward Florida, I just felt so many emotions. Loss, hope, regret, happiness, relief, anxiety, restored health and well-being. A mix of tears and joy. And this song just seemed to sum up everything I was feeling. We heard it over and over, driving for days. But I loved it each time.

Well. This morning, trying to make it to my interview, I was unsure of where I was going and I thought I was running a bit behind. Plus, I had to go to the bathroom and didn’t know if I would have time to pop into a bathroom before my interview. So. I prayed.

Please, God. Let me make it there. Let it be easy to find. Let me have time to break for the bathroom.

And as I was praying, this song came on. I just felt so hopeful at that moment. The song just makes me want to pump my fist out of the car window and let the wind whip my short hair around. With a brave whoop and whistle, I just want to jump around and conquer anything in front of me.

So I found the school just 1-2 minutes after turning. Turned in, found the building, found the room, found the loo 🙂 and nailed my interview. Best interview I’ve ever given possibly.

Thank you, God. Thank you, Ed. Thank you, Universe.

Let your will be done, God. But thank you for a good day. Praise be to your name.

Feel Good

Feel Good today. I always have to listen to this song when I feel good.

I feel good today. And I feel the infinite possibilities of the universe threatening to pull my molecules apart and fling me far into the future. It’s a scary, wonderful feeling that has me at the top of good. Embrace the race.

I hope you feel some good today.

DON’T STOP! GET IT, GET IT! LOL