Scars

Scars are the birthplace of unconditional love.

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Scars

Haiku


Scars are proof that once
You were sick. And now you’re healed
All shiny, slick, thick.

Scars shine in the light.
The bleeding’s done, no more night.
Morning’s torn, all’s right.

I don’t mind scars now.
Reminders of my power
To heal deepest hurt.

Won’t be seen again
I’ve been wounded deep within
Hold it back with skin

Progress

I’m not ready for Bikini Beach, but I’ve made some progress. I can see small differences. You’ll notice the surgery scars on my stomach now. But they are healing nicely. I may never be ready for Bikini Beach, but I can visit One-Piece with a Cover-Up Bay down the road. 😉

So, I’ve lost approximately 80 lbs. since Thanksgiving 2016. That’s been about 3 months. I feel better finally after both surgeries, weight loss and gallbladder removal. I have more energy! I think I’m fully recovered at this point. Healed and getting healthy. My diseased organs are out and I’m losing pounds (less rapidly, but still losing)! Current weight=375.4.

I walked up 2 flights of stairs the other night! More like dragged myself up to the 3rd floor, but. For you fitness fans, that might not sound like a lot, but to me, it’s an accomplishment. I can workout at the gym, but stairs just kill me. That’s a lot of gravity to overcome! I prefer weight lifting, gym-wise, but lifting my legs one stair at a time does not qualify in my book. 🙂 It certainly WAS intense cardio to do the stairs though. Even for a few minutes.

Our elevator was broken, so I either decide to move into the lobby, or I climb to the 3rd floor to sit down. The lobby doesn’t have a kitchenette or bathroom, so…

3 months ago, I don’t think I could have made it. Honestly. So that feels good. I was out of breath, but I made it.

So, since August 2012, I’ve lost a total of 138 lbs. That feels like something. A move toward something positive. Some days I feel great, some days I still have a wobbly tummy, but overall, I feel better. That’s something.